Still in the Dream

It was as if I were awaken while still sleeping.

"Hi Sam, how is it going?"

That was a phone call from a guy whom I had JUST SORT OF, SLIGHTLY KIND OF been dating. Since I hadn't seen him for long, I almost forgot about him, and my memories about our conversations were mostly deleted from my brain. But just like a PC, my own brain went back to a certain time we used to talk a lot.

"How is your writing project going?"

He was talking about my novel, which I somehow stopped writing a few months ago.

"Ah, yes, right, sure...well, I am stuck. I mean, I ran out of creative juice....thanks for reminding me of that....yeah...that's right....."

You know, it's hard to speak right after being awaken. I was just like that.

"Well, then, you'd need to drink some beer...."

Maybe because my answer was just "yeah" and not anymore, he moved on to ask how I will spend summer, when I take a vacation, etc. He then told me his own summer plan, which was going to a resort island on business. Well, that may be true, since it is also god damn true that I did go on a very busy business trip to the Caribbean last summer. He ended the conversation by suggesting lunch together without suggesting any specific time and place.

I wondered why he called anyway. Maybe it was just that I ran into him on the street yesterday for the first time in a long time. But at that time, I was probably in the worst condition: my hair was messy under this humid weather, my shirt was tatty, and I was groggy as it was Day 2 of my period. So, when he asked me how I am, I only replied in the standard beginner's middle-school English, "Fine thank you, how are you?"

Well, the world is too mysterious to decipher. That is the only thing I can say..........